I wonder what happened to my passion for dance a few years ago.. I used to love ballet a lot. Like really a lot. I didn't want to miss dance lessons when i was young if not i would get really mad. But as i grew older,i started to drift away and not turn up for classes. I started to miss every lesson and slowly,i stopped going. Which lead to disappointment to my parents. I wish i could turn back time. I want to dance again not feeling any shyness and be confident with what i'm doing. I wish i could do that. But it seems like my pride is taking over me. I miss dancing so much! :(

Shit me! I think I feel like killing myself. What happened to my courage and everything?! I'm lost. I feel like i don't know who i am anymore. There is more to it. I'm changing. And i don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing. It just feels weird. Ugh! Have you ever felt like you don't know who you are anymore and just don't care about whatever that's happening around you? I feel like my heart isn't with me. Oh no,i feel like breaking into pieces right now. The lousy feeling that is taking over me.

I felt the sudden feel of loneliness tonight when i was going home. When my mind was blank today,i kinda took the wrong bus and just alighted somewhere. Then walked aimless to get a cab home. This is just one of the nights i guess. I hope for a better future!

Where is that someone when i need it? I need somebody to talk to. I need somebody to cry to. I need somebody to lend me that shoulder and tell me that everything is gonna be okay and tell me that they will be there for me no matter what happens. I need someone to guide me along this lonely path.

Everytime before i start typing on this keyboard,i have a lot of things to say. But when i start typing the first letter of each sentence,my mind would go blank and nothing comes out.

I wish tomorrow would be a better day. I really wish so. Why do i feel so unlove?

AH MA'S FOOD IS ALWAYS THE BEST (Y)
OKAY,BYE BYE!

WOW WOW WOW! SO FAST AND WEEK 1 OF SCHOOL IS OVERRRR!! WOOHOOO :) week 1 of school was okay i guess. Kinda different from secondary school. I have to be independent and everything. Lectures are boring at times. Especially when it's in the late afternoon! It's my nappy time y'know ^^
Well,i can't imagine the many more weeks i have in tp. Already sick after week 1. I don't think i can endure it man. Travelling from one end of singapore to another. I know i can't complain because this is the school that i wanted to go. Oh wells :(
On the other hand,i can't decide on which cca to choose! Together with rachel,we signed up for quite a few. Now,headache! Hahahaha!
Finally went for work yesterday! It feels like a month since i went back but it's only been a week. Now,i have to work at least once during the week. Kinda tired already. Ugh! Let's see how long i can endure this kind of life.
MMMM.. RACHELTANTANNY! THANK YOU SOO MUCH FOR THE FIRST WEEK OF SCHOOL! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ACCOMPANYING ME AND I'M SORRY FOR LETTING YOU GET SCOLDED MY YOUR MOTHER! SORRYY BABEH! :) I LOVE YOU VERY MUCHIE ^^
And of course not forgetting michelle. XIE XIE NI!
Not forgetting my classmates,of course! Thank you kai har for going to school with me. Thank you inez for being a funny class rep. Thank you fatima for your entertainment! WOOHOO! Thank you for my classmates for being you! :)

Well well well! Lecture starts at 4pm later!! Wow,i'm only going to school for 2 freaking hours then home again. HAHAHAHA! Mmmm.. cca fair thing started alrdy and i'm still confused with what cca i should join.
Met up with Rachel after school today at tampines mall for macs. THANK YOU FOR ACCOMPANYING ME TO KILL TIME SO THAT I CAN MEET MY DADDY WONG LATER ^^ LOVE YOU TTM!!!!
I didn't understand lecture yesterday. All i did was just copying the notes down. She went too fast! Well,meeting up with Rachel,Michelle and Natalie for the cca fair later at mushroom. Hopefully,my life in 2010 would be colorful because it doesn't seem so right now :(

WOOOOO! School have alrdy started for all poly students. Mixed feelings. Kinda happy cause i get to make new friends. On the other hand,kinda sad cause everybody has to go on a different path. Oh wells.. This is life! Hopefully i'll get used to poly life soooooon ^^
Met up with Charlene and Weina today at J8 for dinner. This is what i like. Meeting up with friends once in awhile. Talk about what's going on with their life and what's happening all. Cool! Well,school tmr! Sian ttm! Ugh! Have to think of what to wear again.. In future,i think i would wear my sleeping clothes to school. HAHAHAHA!
Dear friends,i hope you all are doing well out there! Hope to see you sooooon,love you very very muchie :>